God is ALIVE! :D

I have a SUPER big praise to God!!! A couple of you might already know, parts of this but I want to tell everyone. Not that God has not been doing things already, but He has been working in my life, close family members, and close friends lives... And just every ones and every thing. He is ALIVE AND WORKING.


Anyway, my story all starts about 3 weeks ago. I shamefully admit that I was not living a life pleasing to God. I was doing everything wrong you could imagine. I started even getting depressed. I was not sleeping, I was not eating right, I was crying all the time. On top of my bad decisions,  there were also some medical things going on through out my family. I started to get mad at God. I kept asking Him why was all of this happening to me. I felt like I was along in the whole world, while everyone was watching and nothing, while God was also just watching to just see what I would doo


 After feeling fed up with everything, I decided to go talk with my youth leader. I had done some things that I did not think were forgivable. I thought I did not even matter anymore. But turns out I was wrong. After talking for a while and understanding that God does forgive sin through Jesus, I am now able to "get over" it. And I use quotations because I am not proud that I lived (and probabbly will again at some point in my life) and how I did and did some things that I did, but I am able to live past it because tomorrow is another day!


That is not really the part that is the praise... That is just the beginning. :) After asking for forgiveness, I have moved on... Sense then, God has blessed me. He is answering long awaited prayers. I mean, he answered prayers before, I just did not see them because He did not answer them the way I wanted Him too.
Now that I took that big long rabbit trail... The praise is.... My Brother-in-law Ross, GOT SAVED!!!!


He is a real story. When him an my sister got together, I would not even go in the same room as them. I was so mad they were having a kid together, let along getting married. I LOVE Malachi, my nephew, he is just precious. But they did not get married, at least not right away. I was not sure whether I was suppose to like Ross or to not like him.. I prayed for him for a long time. A lot of people did.


They then got married. I was happy. But I still was praying that Ross would get saved.... So Like2 or 3 days ago he had some car trouble, he was feeling kinda the same as I was a week ago. "Why was God doing this to him???" He told Ashley, my sister, that he needed God in his life. Then it was just yesterday that I got the text... That said "Ross got saved!" To see that, was just... you know that was God.


Well I love Ross like family, and he is officially family- both in brother-in-law and in Christ! I cannot wait to see how God can use him and how his life will change. I am just so thankful that God gave me a great family and Friends!


If any of you blog readers actually made it through this whole post, thanks! It may not make sense to everyone, but in makes sense in my jumbled mind :D